Well over 24 hours after his arrival into the world I finally got to say a proper hello to my little boy. Due to the huge volume of blood loss before and during delivery I’d been kept in bed longer than usual so I was extremely sore and stiff but with a lot of help from the midwives I was finally able to shower and be taken down to neonatal to see my baby.

I should point out that they did fetch his incubator in to see me yesterday just as I’d come out of recovery but I was too groggy to even remember seeing him for those precious couple of minutes.

I still haven’t held him yet or expressed any milk for him, that is going to be todays challenge but at least I got to touch him. He really is tiny  and apart from a touch of jaundice and being tube fed he is doing really well 

I’m expecting the next few days/weeks to be tough as I’m still struggling to get my head around the birth etc, as I was under general anaesthetic for his birth and I’ve still not even had a cuddle, breast feed or skin to skin I’m finding the whole bonding process is going to be a slow one. Im being completely honest about this with my husband and he understands and has promised to help as much as he can.