Today Oscar is 5 weeks old and it’s taken me until now to be able to write this as I’ve been thinking long and hard what to say. I could go into graphic detail about blood loss, general anaesthetics, Oscar needing resucitation when he was born etc but I don’t need to because to me that’s not what Oscar’s birth was about.

I could let the trauma of the whole episode haunt me and let it ruin my relationship with Oscar, I could beat myself up for not being able to give birth properly this time etc etc but at the end of the day Oscar is now a healthy little baby who is fast approaching his due date, I’m feeling fit and healthy and we are home and settled so to keep looking back at the birth and going over the gorey details is not going to help either of us.

And so I will share the one moment of 14th Feb which to me is the special moment about Oscar’s birth. Just after I’d been told they were going to deliver and we were going to theatre, we were in the delivery room waiting to go up when a song came on the radio. Me and my husband looked at each other and smiled as we held hands as it’s a very special song to us anyway, the first time I heard it live it gave me goose bumps and we always said if it had been released when we got married we would have chosen it as one of our wedding songs. Instead it came on at the moment I was going off to have Oscar. As we looked at each other right then we had tears in our eyes as we knew it was all going to be ok and we were going to have our baby at last.

And so I share with you the song which to me will always be the part of Oscar’s birth that I will remember with a smile :)